January 4, 2010

My struggle with blogging

So, on top of the fact that I have a hard time staying consistent with updating this blog like I would like to (twice a month is my ideal), I’m struggling with something new.

I just returned from Urbana 09, InterVarsity’s triennial missions conference. God moved incredibly, and I felt it too even as a staff.

One of the things that God has showed me is how much I try to stick out for attention, how much I serve for my own feelings of self-righteousness, how much I lead out of a need for control as opposed to having a desire to honor God.

And now, I find myself wanting to make myself less visible so that God can be more visible. Yet, a blog seems to be at odds with that goal.

People write blogs to talk about what they’ve done, things they are thinking about, and I find myself feeling the pressure to write something interesting or worth reading that will capture people’s attention. This type of performance-based blogging is draining and not life-giving, as it seeks to magnify myself and not Christ. The same goes for prayer letters to my supporters.

Any suggestions for one frustrated communicator? Please pray for me.

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